I'm still around!

A friend asked me yesterday that why i've left blogging. It took me by surprise because I dont really think I've left it. Or have I? There are a number of topics I want to write about, but its too scattered. I want to write about things ranging from pResident evil busharraf to the first encounter with my best friend around 7 years ago. I want to write about murders of people I know, and about deaths of people I dont know. I want to write about pleasant, happy, funny times, and I want to write about sad, depressing, bad times. Unfortunately, I'm trying to write about all these things at the same time. Stupid me. I'm unable to concentrate on one thing. Sort of mercurial-natured these days. Working this way, I wont be able to write about anything. And thats exactly what's happening.

Then there's another problem. I'm afraid of writing the truth now. I've discovered that people do read my blog, and its a BIG problem. It means that I cannot write whatever I want to write. Because that would mean calling a lot of trouble. I cannot write what I feel, I have to write what people think I feel. And I cannot freely write about things happening around/to me because they involve other people. And I dont want to create problems for someone else by dragging them in here. I've realized that being anonymous is a real blessing. Maybe I'll have to change the url and my identity on this blog. Or maybe I need to start another anonymous blog where I can be truly myself. Or maybe i need to restrict access to this blog to only those people whom I trust. but whatever, one this is for sure. i'm unable, but still willing to write! i'm still around!!