i'm impressed!!

just noticed that my profile views counter has reached 73 in just 64 days!! i'm impressed with my performance as a blogger!! but more impressive is the fact that now i have more profile views than my "inspiration" to this world of blogging - Krak Head - who's profile views are 55. what do u say Krak Head?? but i guess it will take me some time to overtake another "inspiration" Sameer Durrani , who is at 115 right now!

thanks to all the readers who like my stupid thoughts!!!

iQuote

Really liked this quote by Luke Mellors:
"Significant others - in my case my wife - are like IT problems in that there are times when they require more attention, often are hard to figure out, break down now and again, need huge bandwidth in order to communicate and aren't nearly as redundant as you would like them to be."

Back in Action

I was obsessed with literature. could not go to bed without a book. there have been times when i "read" dictionary because i could not find anything better to read. and about writing, i used to keep a paper/pen under my pillow. i used to write alot. freedom of expression is a basic human right. i used to speak less, but write alot to express myself.... but time changed, and so my habits. i stopped reading, and stopped writing. but i could not stop thinking and feeling. thoughts started piling up inside me. my smile got replaced by an expressionless face, which was then replaced by an angry face. i became an angry man who knows nothing except shouting, who cannot see good in anything, and who does not know how to smile. i was falling into darkness. anger and pessimism took over me. i wanted to get rid of it, but did not know how. and then one day, i discovered Krakhead's Blog through orkut. and it reminded me that i used to be a writer once. the writer inside me woke up, and i came back on track. thoughts started transforming into words instead of frustration. i started feeling better.
but alot has changed during this break. my laptop has replaced my writing pad. my diary has been replaced by my blog. but more importantly, my writing style has changed. and above all, urdu has been replaced by english. four years back, i could not imagine that i would be writing in english. and now, its very hard to write the type of urdu that was once my specialty. it used to be difficult for me to find english translation of urdu words. and now, i keep searching and scraching my head for urdu translation of english words. its strange, and disturbing, because i dont want to lose the quality urdu language that i once possessed. i remember four years back, my urdu was so pure that people used to find it difficult to translate it into "normal" urdu. and now, i speak "normal" urdu as they say, but this urdu has surely been contaminated by some extensive use of english.
but still, no matter what the medium, no matter what the language, it really IS good to start writing again!! i'm feeling a lot lighter now, alot fresher and alot livelier.

The Psuedo Car, A Poem

when writing the post Oceanic Thoughts: The Psuedo Car, i was thinking of this poem, just got hold of it! so, here is what the legendary zameer jafri has to say about sameer's princess and the haunted grey one:

Aik She'r

Dont have courage to write anything on what happened in Karachi. just a she'r of Iqbal (i guess)

Ae Khasa e khaasaan e rusul, waqt e dua hai
ummat pey teri aa k ajab waqt prra hai

اے خاصہ خاصان رسل، وقت دعا ہے
امت پہ تری آ کے عجب وقت پڑا ہے

this really is a sad state of affairs i must say.

(Background: on 13th April 2006, A milaad gathering was bombed in Karachi on the day of Eid milaad un Nabi, killing more than 50 people)

I will always be there...

My Dear Friend
anytime u need
a shoulder to cry on
a friend to rely on
a hand to hold on
or any help to carry on
just give me a call
a missed call is all i need
write an sms if u can
or just send an email
and if u cant even do that
just call my name from inside ur heart
just think of me
and say that you need a friend
I promiss
I will be there
as soon as i could
I will be there
sooner than anyone else
I will be there
no matter how far i am
no matter how busy i am
I might not be able to solve
but i will definitely share
I might not be able to
shrink your long distances
but i will walk along till the end
and i will stand beside you
even if the whole world abandons you
even if i have to leave the whole world
even if the whole world leaves me
I will stand beside you
My Dear Friend
whenever u count the people you can count on
whenever u count the people you trust
whenever u count your friends
start counting from me
because even if everyone else abandons you
I wont
I will never ever let you face the problems alone
I will never break your trust
I will never dissappoint you
My Dear Friend
if you dont remember me in your good times
if you dont share your happy moments with me
I dont really mind
but
if you dont remember me in your bad times
if you dont share your sad moments with me
then I wont forgive you
but I will still stand beside you
and I would still love to help you
because I love you
becaues I love my friends
because I love myself
My Dear Friend
helping others gives me energy
helping others keeps me alive
helping others is purpose of my life
dont let me starve
dont let me die
help me achieve purpose of my life
remember me in your bad times
and i promiss
I will never dissappoint you
I will always be there to share
I will always be there to care
I will always be there to listen
I will always be there to help
I will always be there...

Marrying a lady doctor...

a medical student asked me to write a few lines in punjabi about marrying a lady doctor, which she wanted to use in her punjabi speech... i was told later that it DID amuse people! (and this comment DID amuse me!!!)

meri man k buch jaao gey
doctrni wiya k phas jao gey
pandday tou tou mar jao gey
ubli sabzi kha kha ak jao gey
bachay khaddanday reh jao gey
raataan jaag jaag rul jao gey

3rd March 2005